Well, a couple of you already know what Im getting ready to say but wanted to let the rest of you in on it as well.

The good news is that Im retiring at the age of 28 and wont have to work agian after two weeks.

Now for the bad news. For the last three weeks I have been getting two or three bloody noses randomly through the day ( which was weird as I had never gotten random bloody noses in my life ). Finally got around to seeing the Dr. early last week to have some test done and figure out what they are coming from. After getting results back and going in for more test to confirm the diagnosis, it was confirmed that I have kidney disease. Both my kidneys are currently operating at 70% and according to the Dr. Im losing about 10%/month. You can do the math on this.

Unfortunately, Transplant is not likely because ofcoarse Im AB- which is the rarest blood type and only 0.08% of the world share this with me. So odds are that Im not going to be able to find an organ in time. Even if I found one, my body would then have to accept it.

There are a few options out there like dialysis and some non-FDA treatments but from what I went over with the Dr. they would only buy me a couple more months and would spend most of my remaining time in hostipals getting treatments, which is not what I want. I would rather take the 6 months I have left and do all the stuff that I was planning on doing for the next 50 years than spend it doing nothing in a hospital.

My plans as of now are that Im going to spent atleast three weeks backpacking through Europe and then coming back here and doing some traveling throughout the country with just me and my dogs. I will be all over the place and will post up an itenary as I know it so that I can meet up with some of you guys when Im close to you.

I know this is depressing, but since I found out the news I have been thinking of how I want to go out. Im not going to wither away in a hospital bed, so I after going back and forth with the idea of sky diving I decided that the last thing I should do should be the thing I love. Im going to build one last bad ass car and head to the salt flats in Bonneville. I know this is close to some of you guys but I this is one of those things I would rather be by myself for.

I hate to ruin your guys day, but I figured you deserved to know whats going on with me as I wont be online much because I wont be home and also think that spending time playing games isnt the best use of my time.

I appreciate your thoughts and prayers as I hope that by some act of God something happens that wont result with the inevitable happening so soon.

You guys have always been there for me with some of the trails and tribulations I have been through before and I know you will be now. You guys are like family and couldnt imagine not having ran into Pyro and Evil in a random game a few years back and not have had the opportunity to know each and everyone of you.

It goes agianst everything I know to do to not pull away from everyone and do this by myself as thats how I have always dealt with problems but Im going to try and stay in touch with everyone on here and let you guys know whats going on as I do.

Thanks for your prayers in advance they are greatly appreciated.

-John

-On a side note, your welcome to say what you like on here or in games but NOTHING of this is to be said on Facebook or anywhere else. The last thing I need is for my clients to find out about this and make my life a living hell for the next two weeks kneck deep in paperwork. I have enough to deal with without dealing with that.

I guess "that fuckin sux" is kind of an understatement here but. I hope and pray u r at least on the list and that u can find a donor. Its been real bro, i wish u the best and if all else fails....go out like a g and if u need anything let me know.

Um i don't even know what to say...I hope you are still coming to WoH as part of the things you will be doing. I have been looking forward to meeting you along with everyone else. I hope you find a donor as soon as possible. We will all be here for you...

Wow this clan is f'n cursed! I can wait to hang out with ya at the WOH. Just like Astro, I really dont know what to say.

john your like a brother to me..im not really religious but my thoughts are with you...if you need anything that is in my power to do just let me know..im glad that i got a chance to meet you when kevin came to town

my prayers are with you man. im pulling for you and hope that a donor comes through and we can keep playing like we always have. stay strong and good luck on doing all the things you've wanted to do.

Sp4c3

dude, i can't believe what i read. your a honest, and a great person , i can't believe out of the blue something like this could happen to anyone. im so sorry man, you are a great friend man, ever since i met you online back in the day i knew that we would click man, but your not gone yet , live your life to the fullest man, and ill pray for you dude. your an awesome friend bro. and you made a huge impact on this clan, i know the clan doesn't compare to other things, but you know we are ALL here for you. stay in touch man. ...

this is one of the worst fucking years of my life, this fucking sucks fucking god damn assholes motherfuck. You have people like lindsay lohan just wasting there life and being a fucking completely useless cumdumpster and then you have a guy like john that totally gets fucked. Fuck this this fucking blows,fuck. Im so fucking pissed and i hope i get to see john one last fucking time.fffffffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk goddamn it

Fuck. I don't know what else to say. John I have only known u over the PlayStation but u are Co sidered a close friend. Remember to live life until the end. God or who or what ever you believe in be with you and your family. I wish I could have met you in person so I could look upon the face of one of the coolest guys I have ever. Had the privilege to game and kill with. My thoughts will always be with you. With love.
Wayne
a.k.a Hoosier

Well said wayne, you never know though. The ole fifth gear might just pop into your town after his european vacation.

and needs to get his ass to St. Paul on a friday night to show that Stang off at Porky's in University Ave!! Bad ass good times!!!